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YOU: O-oh... I had a dream.
You try to keep the fear out of your voice, showing weakness was never really something you were good at. Between having the responsibilities of a god, and having Crash as a younger sibling, you never really had the time for it.
RUDY: Burnsy?
YOU: ... okay, more like, a bad dream.
You can feel your voice wavering, even though you don't exactly want it to. The shakiness in your throat swells and catches, a choking feeling. You cough, trying to clear an obstruction that isn't there.
RUDY: Burn, talk to me.
She's standing infront of you, worried look on her face, eyes focussing in the darkness, the electric light from outside your room spilling in. She's worried about you, that much is obvious, she wouldn't be dropping the cutesy demeanor if she wasn't. You know she's safe, she's been safe for over a century, but still, you just can't make the words happen.
RUDY: Burn, whatever happened, it's okay.
YOU: I...
Your voice cracks, you take a deep breath, you can do this
YOU: I had a dream, it was this... place, I don't know where, but it felt real. Like, it wasn't normal, or anything I'd seen before but it felt like I was dreaming about an actual place, like there were people there, and there were all these screens, with all these different images on them, and there was this heavy feeling, like when we we'd go diving in the lake. And, I don't know, there were people there, and it felt wrong, it felt like they could see me, like they could hear me!. And, and, and I don't know why I'm so afraid of this! I s-should be fine, I'm a god and I'm afraid of people?!
You shake, as it all pours out, tears even coming to your eyes
Rudy reaches out and puts a hand on your shoulder.
RUDY: Shhh... Shhh, you're here, Burn. You're safe. It's been a while since you've had any dreams like this.
YOU: Yeah... since... since what happened with Daisy and Loom...
You don't really like to think about that, Rust was basically your parent, and Verity and Loom your Aunts, you grew up like that, you loved to spend time with Loom, with Verity. They were there through so much of your life, they were there when you took Gertrude on as your partner and demon, and they were there when you cried becuase one of your first mortal friends died.
And then everything fell apart, you couldn't imagine that Loom would have done something like that, but there was nothing else to believe. There weren't any other alternatives. That's the last time you had a dream like this, and the last thing you want is for something like that to happen again
YOU: I just don't want it to happen again, and I'm scared next time it'll be Rust, and then I'll have no one to...
RUDY: That's in the past Burn, there isn't going to be a next time
You try to catch yourself, try to calm down, and it even works a little. Burn is right, but that doesn't make it feel any less bad.
YOU: You just have so much faith in someone, and they just... turn out like that.
You sigh, leaning back into the bed.
YOU: We're going on a trip soon, it should be nice.
RUDY: Mode should be lovely this time of year.
YOU: Love you, Rudy.
RUDY: Love you too, Burnsy.
You don't exactly feel better, but maybe you can get some good sleep now.
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