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She hugs me from behind. It distracts me, but I'm not finding any secret, doom bringing hell rituals down here anyway.
>"I'll be around for as long as you can stand me."
"Hey, I mentioned if we could have kids, and you said 'if I don't fuck this up, sure'. Were you serious about that?"
>"Were you?"
"I asked first."
>"Hah, well, I was kind of serious, but I was also succinct to a fault. I'd like kids someday, but not in the fog. And even after the fog is lifted, I'll have to survive for awhile."
"Why's that such a concern?"
>"Because I'm the poster kid for lifting the fog, and a lot of people will be pissed. They'd love to kill me afterwards, when it sticks. Poetic justice or something. And a fucked up portion of that portion of the population would want to go after my kids, too. Plus, there's whatever life outside of the fog is like. Are there others? Would they accept us? We don't know. It's a huge risk. I'll want to make sure I can handle getting saddled with kids, first. So, now you answer. Were you serious?"
"Okay it was kind of a passion of the moment decision, but yeah, I think so. No rush, though."
>"Close enough to the same page then."
"Maybe when this is over, we can figure out more about ourselves?"
>"If there's anything left to figure out. Anything else you want to get off your brain?"
"Just... I like you too. Thanks for being patient since I put off looking for the keys, I sorta thought your get-shit-done might turn on me then."
>"I do, but sometimes the slow way isn't a bad way!"
"I think my only uncertainty about you is that you've been keeping stuff from me while hinting at things. I mean life ain't fair and all that, but geez, no one likes being left in the dark. Oh, shit, we were supposed to not talk about that stuff, huh."
>"Yeah, I've been trying to stop hinting at shit, sometimes even successfully! Obviously you aren't aware of the successes, since it means I didn't say anything. Anyway, we can put that subject back in the black box for now, but I want to tell you that the only way I'm sharing stuff openly with you is if... well, a couple things, but it all boils down to me needing to trust you fully. And I can only trust you if you trust me. It has to be mutual."
"It's kind of hard to trust you fully when you hide stuff like that!"
>"So to trust me, I have to share stuff openly, but to share stuff openly, I have to trust you, and to trust you, you need to trust me... great. Something in that loop's got to bend. I'll take a look at the easy road first and ask if there's anything I can do to help you trust me that isn't me telling you the biggest secrets I've got."
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