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It's weird - 24 hours ago I never would have DREAMED of talking to Edith about ANYTHING, let alone something like this, but it hasn't taken long for her to prove to me that she's really actually got my best interests at heart ... and the more I think about it, the less I understand why I've spent so long in the closet to her and my dad. I mean, it's not like I have any reason to think they'd react negatively. I've heard them talk about LGBT rights over dinner and stuff, and besides, Edith herself is transgender! If I wasn't so miserable, I'd laugh thinking about it. It all suddenly seemed so silly.
Saying it like that it sounds like my thoughts are a lot more coherent than they are - but really, all of that flashed through my brain as a half-formed revelation, and then before I knew it I was sobbing loudly into my hands. "M-My girlfriend ... just dumped me... she said there's nothing special about me, that I'm mediocre, and I just - I just -"
"Whoa, whoa, whoa, hang on." The car slows and stops - Edith has pulled the car over, and she leans over, her hands hovering. "Calm down, hang on, take a few deep breaths. I can't understand you."
It was all just bubbling out now - I was crying even harder than I had at the library. "I was dating this girl, L-Lacie - we were together for, for eight months, and I really ... Edith, I really really l-liked her and ..."
"Oh, honey. Come on, nice deep breaths. Count your breaths, okay?" Her hand is rubbing between my shoulders and I don't mind it. I do what she says and soon I've worked myself down to hiccuping tiny tears.
"A-Am I really boring?" My nose is running and I probably look really pathetic. She gets a small plastic-wrapped packet of tissues from the glove box and offers them to me, and I blow my nose loudly before continuing. "She said that ... she never had interesting conversations with me anymore, a-and that I don't have any opinions, and that I'm average and I-I guess all this time she thought the dates I took her on were dumb and boring."
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